This blog makes me feel ashamed.

I'm super upset that specktra.net will not work on my computer for who knows what reason. I know it's just my computer because a friend of mine can access it from hers, and it also works at school. I don't know how to make it work, but I need to, because I'm addicted to specktra. I miss it! Haha.

I am very very tired right now.
I think it's because I'm just so emotionally and physically exhausted.
I've been eating way too much, like seriously, I shoved so much crap in my mouth today it was disgusting. And I haven't been working out nearly enough.

Today I got high with a boy who practically only smokes weed because he's not with me.
We talked a lot, althought it was mostly about me.
We shared a very long hug that was the best thing I've felt in so long.
But maybe that doesn't mean anything.
And I'm pretty sure it's not ok that I felt a lot better with a drug than without one. =/