I'm looking up scholarships, I applied to UNO, I'm getting stuff done and starting to not be so terrified about my future.
I'm still stressed, I've still got lots to do, but at this exact moment, with a list of scholarships I need to apply for in front of me, I feel secure.
On my UNO application I said I wanted to be a journalism major. I've been contemplating that since I took journalism my sophomore and love it. I'm still not completely sure that it's what I want to do, but I do know that I enjoy being a part of the school paper and I'm going to give it a try. I still want to attend cosmetology school, I might try and start that during the summer? I'm not sure yet, but I will figure it out.
And I'm pretty sure that I won't be touching any drug again soon. I don't know what happened yesterday, I thought it would help me feel better. I guess I felt happier? But I was embarassed about it, I didn't tell anyone about it because I didn't want them to think I was stupid or be disappointed in me. I don't know... I just know that it's useless, that I'm going to be happy without it.
I'm still really sad that Specktra won't work on my computer. :( It's where I spend all my online time, and now I get bored without it.
I really need to start working out more, I've been doing these short strength training videos most every day, but I haven't been doing much cardio. That should change.