Sometimes I think God is playing a game with me.
It's like, when I think that my life is going ok, everything just crashes down on me.
Honestly, I feel like every time I feel good enough about my life that I don't think about killing myself, or even cutting, that I think "I'm not going to hurt myself, I'm going to be okay", God laughs and says "Think again."
I feel like I'm in some constant battle with him. What if I don't win? =/