I JUST WANT TO LIVE.
I'm tired of school, I'm tired of everything. I feel like doing homework, sitting in class for countless hours, selling people stuffed animals, cleaning the house... it's all just such a waste of time! You don't have that long to live as it is, and what's worse is that you don't know how long you're going to have at all. I can honestly say that if I died tomorrow I would regret not doing more with my life. I would regret not putting myself out there more, I would regret not doing things for me... I think that's what this is all about.
All my life I've been living my life for other people because I was scared about what they would think, or because I didn't want to get in trouble. But as of 10:13pm on Monday September 29th I am no longer going to do that. No one is going to tell me what to do or force me to do something I don't want to. I am going to do what I need to, what I want to, to make myself happy, to make my life worthwhile.
And shit, this is going to be so hard! I'm honestly scared, but I want to try.
I believe that life is all about love, so as of tonight, I'm going to love unconditionally and without fear.
Also, the left side of my mouth hurts really bad. :| I don't know why, sjdglsjagd.
I got some really cute earrings today from Claires, and fixed my turtle's tank, so now it will be easier to clean. Goodnight...