What did you expect from me?

So I actually worked out tonight. (: I walked 10 minutes, ran 5, and did some different things to strengthen my arm muscles. So I didn't do all that much, but it's the first time I've worked out in probably two weeks.
I've just lost my drive. This always happens. I thought it wouldn't this time because that was the longest time I'd gone, just kept going and going, but of course, I stopped. And lately, I just feel like I've been getting fatter and fatter, especially my face and stomach, ugh.
So here's to starting over, and hoping things go well.
This is just the beginning, I'm sure I'll have to keep forcing myself because I just don't want to. Ugh, I can't explain it and it's really pissing me off.

I'm just so angry and stressed at this exact moment and I don't know why.
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Dear God, I'm lost. I need you.<3