I'm blogging, just for Audrey. (:
I've got a lot of feelings, and a lot of thoughts. I don't know where they come from, but sometimes I'd really like to just shut my brain down and tell myself to fuck off.
I like someone? Well, I guess two people. But I told one I didn't want to do anything because I liked the other. I mean, I don't want to date anyone, but I feel weird just liking and messing around with two guys at the same time. Ha, I don't know. I'm afraid that things are gonna be weird now that I said something, like I'll regret it, but oh well. I think I'm just paranoid, really.
Also, everyone's talking about these colleges they got accepted to and it freaks me the fuck out because I haven't applied to any yet. =/
I used to be excited for growing up and now I'm just absolutely terrified.
I don't want to apply, it's too much work.
I don't want to even go because I'm afraid of being alone, and everyone's just going different places.
I just don't want to face life, or reality.
I want to go back to being a little kid when everything was a million times easier.
I need a hottie with a time machine, please. (: Hahah.
Oh, and I'm pretty sure people should stop trying to talk to me about Stephen.
Because I really don't give a fuck.
Basically. I am so fucking scared of the future, to the point where I just don't want to deal with it. AT ALL.
fuck my life. hah.